i m so tired!!!!all i wanna do is slp!!!

today slp in geog den in bio....lela woke me up....kumlesh lesson dun dare slp...

recess drank coffee 2 wake myself...it works!!!

i think mr toh thinks i m dumb...juz coz i didnt get distinction 4 physics?stupid him...ppl nvr bring tb he okok...i nvr bring his eyes almost fell out of his stupid head....n guess wad....the test i alot careless mistake lor...n i did the tys...i actually took the effort 2 do lor....den tell me he try a new learning system wif me....idiot...after lesson come ask me abt the lesson...think i sttupid ar?stupid him

den received news tt next yr still 2 jc intake...izzit gd or bad?dun care.

i m going crazy if the amt of hw goes on like tis....its crazy!den everyday staying back 4 np or 4 badminton...wanted 2 tell ml i dun wanna play...but like so bad?n i need it so tt i will not throw face on fri...nvm....after tis wk no more np!tues can go home early slp!!!cant wait!!!o ya...we thrash lh n faezah today!!!



today last tuesday practice we gonna hav...sad sad...i m so gonna miss every1...my sec1s!!!

today dunno y very tired...chi was supposed 2 do zao ju w/s yet i end up slping...tt horse woke me up many times...she practically pinched me...*ow!*den eng i was awake till da entertainment contest started...suppose 2 b very funny n exciting yet i still slp.but during our class 'slping period' which is geog...i was wide awake n chionging all my hw...i wonder y...

met up wif ml,jaime n cel 4 lunch...da last time we hav lunch together b4 np practice...sad...jaime in physics high achiever...so pro!!!but coz of tt she came down late...so we bought lunch 4 her...halfway eating jaime msg us tell us not 2 buy her food...if buy eat it up 4 her?=.=|| tts impossible.but she finally came down!yay!

practice 4 pop...i so dam extra!!thanks 2 joseph...i dun hav a partner n end up in da center 4 all da formations....while every1 marching away forming a new formation all i do is hentak....den every1 marching past me...how nice...coz last sat i didnt go....i lag in da drills.stupid lor...every1 explain 2 me explain till they ask'u sure u pass sgt?' wadever..u all ssgt very big la.how insulting.den got 1 part pull out the cocking hammer n push it back....i cant seem 2 push it back fast!!!stupid....den all very buay song me coz of tt coz we hav 2 re-do n re-do till i get it rite...

debrief...insulting too....point at me n zq n say sgt...den at ant n say ssgt....den zq hao lian he got 1st class while i onli 3rd class...thanks zq...thanks 4 telling every1 i fail...=.= but vicky say if can she dun wan us come back except 4 me!!!muahahaha!!!!!!!gd job vicky!!!i luv u!!!!!!!!den they soooo irritating...keep asking 2 b dismissed....sad lor...sec2 n 3 squad chit chatting happily wif their ic lor...den sec 2 even sang a song....sec1 so not enthu la

in np room so funny!!!juz luv da time theres no debrief frm officers or our squad laugh in there....o ya....leonard n qazim...congrats!!!!!!!!!!!!!they pass sgt due 2 their hard work in np...gd 4 u!!!!=) alvin announce tt time it was so funny....he keep saying'after much consideration...' den some1 will come interupt den he will repeat tt over.o ya...theres no more project!qazim was saying tt his project seems so useless...den theres no welfare n discipline too....but got competition i/c...

after np went wif zq n ant 2 shop 4 sec1s pop prezzie....we got a squad of 38 n we onli willing 2 spend $10 each...minus those irregulars each sec1 prezzie onlil $1..hahaz...i noe we cheapo....but sec1 squad too big le la...den su ing keep asking us if we like poems not..jin yi ask our bday....hahaz....i so touch!!!i juz luv them so much!!!!cant bear 2 part wif them sia...*sob sob*



NCO 2304 rox can...[although da guys sux] so stupid...wake up not enuff still add pathetic?i think da 1 who said tt is da pathetic soul who needs 2 wake up...luckily i m not there 2 hear it myself....it will make me hate tt person nia

sydnie call me tis morn...tell me she not coming np on tues coz she broke her arm or sth...i was slping...cant really rmb wad she say..hahaz...poor sydnie...see la...drink too much red bull den super hyper den always injured...every prac sure go medic....10 mins later ok liao..=.=|| weird gal

vicky juz called too...ask my wads my horoscope...funny qns....den ask zq n ant horoscope...confirm is our pop prezzie...hehex...sth 2 do wif our horoscope...wad cud it b?*wonder*anyway we haven bot theirs yet...opps...dunno wad 2 buy...any1 got suggestion???

I luv my sec1s!!!!!!!!!but pop next wk....1 or 2 more prac left wif them..*sob sob*haven really taught them anything yet...haiz...



juz 1 thing 2 say...NCO batch 2304 guys sux big time!they r jerks!!!
dun care if any of them sees tis liao...they r truly jerks...jerks who cant wait 2 chased their squadmates away...ppl who dun help squadmates...details of incident can b taken frm ml's blog

not gonna let them spoil my day ya...although its quite bad wif tt n an encounter wif soh...morning too...got scolded by my mum..haiz

met faezah,qazim n ml...wanted go take mrt...but coz of smartness of faezah we end up walking 2 bugis.....den ml tot it was dhouby gaut....hahaz...asked 4 directions n da woman looked so shocked.den on da way took photos wif satues wif us trying 2 imitate them...

at bugis met lh,erine.jac.yl n cheryl...we sat outside shop made lots of noise....cudnt decide wad 2 eat n wad movie 2 watch either...hahaz...end up taking more photos using qazim's cam in neoprint machine...cheapo us =x[more details on lh's blog?hahaz..i lazy type]

after tt lh n faezah came 2 my hse n we went 2 play badminton...lh!!!i not tt bad lor...is da wind!!!!we planninggo play badminton tmr....wif cel,ml,jaime,ml,lh,faezah n mayb sec3s?

in da end?plan cancelled!!!!sad...i plan so xin ku u noe...haiz...y i everytime finally plan sth all ps me de????oi!!!! y liddat???????so nan de we going 2 do sth together leh...somemore ask them earlier all so enthu say ok?details confirm liao all cannot...haiz...we mus get 2 play badminton sometime k?



haiz...feeling upset today...ok...da very last depressing post i m gonna hav here...i m NOT gonna shed tears or get mad wif ppl like all of u...it juz spoils my image...[do i even hav 1?]

nco camp 2005....quite fun...but i like kena bullied?ok...nvm...

i m sry 4 walking out again today...i noe every1's looking 4ward 2 lunch...sry if i spoiled it...but anyway,i m sure all of u wun miss me...after all...i m juz a troublesome,talkative,big-mouth,gossipy,unwanted seamonster in all ur eyes

i tried 2 tolerate liao...seriously i did...but it was too much 4 me 2 bear...i heard some1 said 'sensitive' i m...but u think la....if u hav ppl saying 'shhh' 'shut up' 'diam' 'yaya...wadever' whenever u speak,how wud u feel?

i had some company...but i realize i m juz like a substitute...when i m da onli person there u all will tok 2 me nicely....but if there r others....u all juz walk w/o waiting 4 me...u all dun bother waiting...nvm....u all dun even look back 2 see if i m there....i guess i m forgotten

hypocrites...wc asked us do things....u say dun care....wait till cis ask us do during debrief....end up all kena scolded....den we juz rest some other time u wan do other things can ask us dun rest head on table etc....fine...i wanted 2 say u de...but 4get it...i dun wanna coz unhappiness

play game....die die wan me b 'zhuang' y?coz our bid is a smack on da hand....all tried changing ur cards 2 win?y?so can whack me rite?den when i win all say i cheat....so onli i will kena whack rite...fine....i juz play....but u all whack so hard tt my hands went all red n my nail even broke....do any of u care?juz wanna whack more n take pic....take pic of my 'humiliation....fine....wif frenz like tis i dunno wad 2 say

k..those were not y i m sad....wads da reason?

u all say i big-mouth n gossip queen....think abt urself....million time worse den me....i repeat...MILLION!think u cool or wad izzit?u juz a idiot who needs company....no company come find me...got company critisize me....fine...

ever tot y i become so called 'gossiper'? in da past i told some of u i feel left out....u all say is coz i dun try 2 fit in...ask me try 2 join in conver....fine...i do juz tt....n tis is wad i get?wth!!!!!n y m i always da 1?????????guys....u all help ml,cel,jaime.....den all like insult me....y??????wad did i ever do 2 deserve tt?n gals....juz coz da guys help u,u all turn tables against me.....k lor...i juz hav 2 accept tt i hav frenz like tis.

how many times i tried joining u all n u all ignored me???hav u all realized after u all run off i tried following even though i m sick n not supposed 2 run?i was panting....like an asthma coming up...but i did not say anything but juz use my inhaler

mayb our squad is juz hopeless...i really dun wan our squad always getting scolded....giv u all reminder of wad we supposed 2 do n all ask me shut up or ignored me....its not da 1st time...

once i ask u all sth u all ignore me...fine ....is ci ask me do de....so i juz told them dunno...den hy say i kena outcasted izzit?i told her no....i believe u all wud not do tt 2 me...but looking bac...i think shes rite....

like wad kris has on her blog...'i know friendship cant be forced..
i'm not asking to be everyone's best friend..''

but is wad we hav even frenship?i doubt so...

anyway....sry 2 anthony 4 asking u 2 help me do stuff...sry 2 qazim if i m gossip queen....sry 2 ml if today was da '1st' time i kept quiet...sry 2 all of u 4 having 2 listen 2 me speak...dun worry....i promised i wun ever speak 2 any of u again....dun blame me 4 it...since u all cant stand me talkong i guess its da onli way....actually i noe u all cant stand me speaking....rmb cc?everytime i said something all say 'kk...yaya....we noe' when things go wrong....its coz i nvr tell u all...juz like water parade n publicity...

i m done wif np....wad has it taught me?not endurance,teamwork n 1 4 all all 4 1....i think its all crap...wad it taught me is u can onli depend on urself...n theres no nid 2 communicate...best if u keep ur mouth shut...n if anything goes wrong...best 2 shoulder it urself...

benny....i not angry wif u....theres no nid 4 u 2 say sry...i dun blame u....i onli blame myself....coz i m born liddat....born 2 b unwanted n hated...its my life...i hav 2 live wif it

i guess when i left jaime must b thinking'not again....always liddat...storming off wif a minor matter...' i onli got 1 think 2 say....stand in my shoes....try having every1 treating u da way they treat me....try having ur frenz helping others instead of standing by u.if u can do tt i got nth 2 say

i dun hate my squad...in fact...i luv u guys....but mayb i juz dun belong here...it was a mistake rite frm da beginning....i m sry i m born n here disturbing u guys n spoiling ur fun....i dun mind if neither of u ever speak 2 me again...i dun care anymore...mayb i m 2 lead a loner's life...depending on myself n no 1 else...

o ya...i dun think any1 will read thru such a long entry....but in case got ppl reading...i m sry 4 blabbering all tis crap....but it juz how i feel



last wk of sch 4 tis term.wee~~...but holidays not like holidays ya...all da teachers r saying 'tis is a time 4 u 2 study' yaya...wadever...

tis wk quite ok la...esp today..
spent time wif sy n swati chatting during p.e coz we all sick n sy got back injury...den da dental nurse come ask 4 help say cannot find farmi n hanisah...say she cannot find them in 0407...den i n sy went 0407 n found them....is she blind or wad?den maths...i miss mrs lim!!!!!!!!!!!!!

during recess hav 2 clear da stupid locker coz they shifting it...den bks inside might coz it 2 deform =.=|| so i was trying 2 clear it..den ii realise i left so much bks inside!!!haiz...imagine carrying a pile of bks as high as ur neck?so heavy...n half of it is not even mine!!!*pissed*

den assembly!!!so boring...i was practically slping....but tt dr atom or sth so funny...immediately wake me up...den praise ys n charlene say they smart den praise ms lela 4 having such smart students n praise himself 4 having taught lela...how shameless....go 1 round end up praising himself.=.=|| den i think he speak greek or sth....cant understand wad he says...i dun think any1 can...so all juz laugh..

den got video on std...den some1 go close da video n every1 in da hall went 'oi!!!' hahaz...got some handouts or sth....dam gross pic...=x

np went 4 sevice day...dunno wad i do in my past life sia...y again got yj in my grp??????not tt he naughty or wad....but he like...haiz....keep asking qns till i sooooo pissed can....den tell him sth he always dun understand...haiz....den like wan 2 argue wif me?grr....

after np went wif cel,jaime n qazim go tm eat.cel bot shoes qazim bot shoelaces....ultimate motive is 2 buy snacks end up nvr buy any...jaime say she asked sec1s which ic they like....most choose zq...but hor....he in front of them act nice lor....behind them wan torture them lor...false front lor...act act nia....wan b ci nia...pui! den they say i very kind.of coz!!hahaz...den ant quiet...i agree!!!

got bac progree report too...haiz...my class competition tough sia...i last few in class lor...n given my result in other class like 10+ 20+...haiz...n i failed both language...how nice...dunno how i m going 2 show my mum...calculated da L1R5 myself....like 22?haiz...guess i hav 2 work harder...

was sick on wed....sneeze n sneeze till nosebleed...how nice....den slp wake up cannot walk straight....hahaz....doc say close 2 an attack....i wonder if i nvr see her how ar?die?=x

tmr nco camp!!!so boring!!anything also do...onli can study...sianz....guess i hav 2 keep myself occupied



surprise surprise...today found out sth shocking...hmm...n mayb funny?

k..here goes.after sch walk pass np rm 2 go 4 ptsm.saw ml n faezah...wanted 2 discuss sth wif them..*wink* den they ask me if i m going 2 road safety park not?i was like...'huh?got meh?' so quickly took da excuse letter n ask anz they all help me giv soh...den off we go!!!

reach there n had briefing....same old things la....3rd time as road marshal liao...den end up taking charge of a zebra crossing....wif da nearest checkpoint wif samuel there....den not far away theres jaime n daneil

da fun part comes....samuel keep calling jaime...ask her come....den i ask him y he keep calling her?den i rmb some1 told me samuel's msn nick had jaime's name...so i teased him...'u like jaime ar?' guess wad he said?'mdm!!!how u noe???'O.O i was shocked!!!i onli meant it as a joke!!!

he scared cis noe sia...hahaz...poor boy...den die die also dun wan change position wif me....but wif daneil... so he can b wif jaime!!!!=.=||so lovelorn?

he jealous of wj!!!!he tot wj n jaime couple....so told daneil he like another gal....complicating rite...hahaz....but i noe da whole story!!!!muahahaha....n now....almost da whole squad noes!!!!!hahaz....i onli told ml!!!den she told faezah...den ask me tell jen den tell every1!!!

on da bus bac we told samuel jaime's bday...he so excited!!!!hahaz....but too bad la...tt day she n wj going 4 competition!!!!awww....so sad....so....samuel vs wj....who will win?we also purposely sing 'i ask my love' 4 jaime n samuel...hahaz....so funny...wahaha...k...when did i become so gossipy?=x

o ya...mrs lim went 4 kidney transplant....GET WELL SOON!!!!!!!i luv u mrs lim!!!u r da best mmaths techer i ever hav!!!!must come bac asap!!!!*prays*



haiz...pop coming soon...sad sia

last time i was hoping pop wud come earlier,but now ever since wl announce tt it will b on da 2nd of april...i wish it wud nvr come

when he confirm da date i was feeling so empty...sad too.i juz got 2 take my squad less den a mth ago lor...ytd was onli our 5th prac n we r passing out in less den a mth...like wth.i ant n zq haven got 2 teach them any drills yet lor...i haven got 2 noe all of them yet too.sad sad..haiz...

n not 4getting my squad...we hav been together for 3 yrs +++ n in another mth's time we will all go our seperate ways liao.haiz..not tt we cant meet up la...but think we will?i dun think so...haiz....really huai nian all da time we had together ya...esp now every fri we will go eat dinner after np n crap 4 a few hrs. when we pass out we wun hav those time liao..sad..

den np rm...it was a gd place 4 hanging out ya...crapping inside doing silly things blah x3.next mth we cannot go in liao...den no place 4 all of us 2 meet up during sch hrs liao...everywhr so crowded too coz of tt stupid homeroom thingy...haiz...

ytd we went 2 eat after np too...they ask da cis along too.but alvin didnt come n wy came...didnt expect him..hahaz.asked him abt his results n he show da result slip 2 us...not bad la hor.hmm....but da cis were really quiet...like onli mix within themselves nia.den jen say he wanna become pm..*control laughter* n he added tt quite alot of ppl say tt if he bacome pm they wud migrate....guess wad wl said 'they r not da onli ones' wahahaha....gd thing 2 say!!!den jen also told a ghost story n wl told him it was a gd try...wahahaha...so funny...shld hav seen jen's expression...hmm....i will miss those times ya

guess i beta treasure da time we hav left in np..haiz..last time we were all looking forward 2 it...but dunno y now we r feeling empty ya...like qazim n benny....can see it frm their blog...



ling....y u ask tt qns?????haiz....i knew it...but i was hoping not....hahaz...shan't go into details...it doesnt make much difference in my life anyway...life still goes on....but i rather not noe...=x.i sound heartless...haiz...

yesterday ling siao...keep laughing???o.O hahaz...but kip laughing!!!i rather see u laugh den frown...den today also...hahaz...siao ling ling.jess also siao de....laugh wif ling?hahaz...or mayb i m da siao wan?laugh till i can go bang my head liao...so funny

today ash,jun,n matilda ally against me....hey....sumtimes is u all whack me 1st lor....hmmph....esp jun...whack ppl's butt de...pervert.den matilda so scary in chem...always scared she come whack me....haiz...

n my sec 1s!!!i luv them...they sooooo cute!!!hahaz...when they not irritating lar.i think now they da reason i still turn up 4 np?wahahaha....i juz wan 2 see them.n i finally rmb all their name liao...hahaz...finally!!!vicky..u say wan treat pizza...when???i waiting...=x

den music is it coming...shld i go?haiz...wanted go wif ling they all de...but got st pats guys?sheesh...i dunno them...den qazim kip asking me go ya...hmm...summore can skip part of nco camp!!!wee!!!faezah even tot of her outfit liao...wow!so who wanna go???

thankz faezah 4 accompanying me today ya...took up lots of time...n it was lame...hahaz...