omg....wads happening?

more n more ppl start 2 feel sad....depressed...angry...

jealousy involved...anger involved....frenz involved...y?

been blog-hopping earlier...saw some entries...omg...feelings of anger everywhere...haiz...wad happen?does having new frenz affect old ties?haiz....sad ya...i n justine see le feel sad too,although we r not involved...haiz...wad 2 do...juz like ling...we feel sad 2 see every1 falling apart too.

cheer up every1!!!theres always me!!!=)

i knew it...knew sth was wrong tt day...could see it frm faces.buts theres nth i could do.

hope by tmr every1 ok liao...or else its gonna b hard...

anyway...i still luv u guys..opps...gals...[in no order of importance]jess,py,kris,justine,ling....n also my np frenz....ml,cel,jaime n mayb every1 in da squad? hahaz...n also lh,faezah,jannah,hy,wq...n not 4 4getting my dearest boi boi,g.t,ah mo n all my pri sch frenz!!!i luv u guys!!!



woot~ssgt finally over!!yay!!!though i most prob fail la...hahaz...it will b a MIRACLE if i pass anyway...=x

woke up later den i planned...wth....cannot go 7-11 buy red-bull try le...hmm...wanted 2 try...later as pro as red-bull ger!!!muahahaha....den reached there np rm onli got officers....jaime n cel change ok le....so hurry go change....1 thing 2 say...my uniform like shit!!!my badge straight...but like slanted?aiya...heck care liao....juz hope i survive...den 4got cut my nails summore....den last nite realize no nail polish remover....so prayin hard ci dun see ya....

den go np rm put bag...like kena chased out?idiot....hmmph....den outside crap...was dam nervous ya...worried abt theory too....wanted 2 study on da way 2 sch de....but i 4got 2 bring...den draw rifle blah x3.den rain!!!idiotic sia....so heavy summore....den fatimah ask us wait till rain stop....jaime wanted go ask 'whrs ur wet weather proposal?' LOL den sort of stand in 2 rows prac...so hardworking rite...den sy say he think might hav 2 postpone coz of rain....but da stupid rain stop!!!!hmmph!

so go 4 promo...got 3 cis take...stress....i was hoping my turn after break....but i m da 5th...stupid....completely unprepared can.so anyhow...i 4got 2 buka them ya...sheesh...n i was sure i was loud...i was practically screaming....but all say i was da softest?wth. den moi....julang...arghh!!!!i got nth 2 say....haven practise moi 4 mths liao...so was lousy...sheesh...all say i was laughin...m i?mayb...i dun think i even reach 2 mins sia...den break!!!hahaz...gd...i nid break!!!wanna die le...den i 4 got i was supposed 2 giv timing....too excited go break le...haiz...so break n came bac..was late...hahaz...den all da pacing drills i do wrong lor...i too long nvr do drills liao....4get whr kiri n kanan le...so 1st time turn i turn wrong direction...pacing i go wrong direction...den change fast march 2 slow n slow march 2 fast i wasnt listening too...so end up fumbled alot....n my timing sux!!!i sumtimes 4get timing...haiz...

so after me my heart die le....confirm no hope le....xin hui i leng...=x...so start 2 slack...as long as i do can liao la...hahaz...tts my mentality..i noe its wrong....but wad 2 do....really dam tired dam sick of tis sickening promo.hmmph!!!den cel's turn...i wanna hoot her can...make us julang soooo long....my arm breaking liao....den b4 da last person sy told us not 2 slack...hahaz....so i try lor...but already lost hope.

end of promo prac!!!yay!!!so happy...i tot my finger breaking...till now still red n pain lor...den during promo can feel my face burning....so ask cel my face red not....she say no...den lunch!!!yummy!!!sooo hungry lor...

tts not all...theres still ssgt theory....*panic* hahaz...i nvr open bk at all...all is ask ppl here there explain abit 2 me...so prays hard....hahaz....in da end i dunno da leadership crap....behind all quite ok...halfway thru i fell asleep...tts typically me....falling asleep during test...den wake up panic...hahaz...tis bad hait mus go ya...cannot continue liddat.

den theory over...yay!!!oys over its over..lalalala*sings* so we hurry go change...look into da mirror n got a shock....my face sooooooooo red!!!!!!!!!den on top white....yucks....onli me n cel burn lor...ml n jaime look normal....unfair!den check da neck....red too....jaime also hav...onli ml no effect...i think she immune 2 sun sia...lucky her.den our squad go tm eat...den crap?hahaz...perverts can...dun pollute me!!!hahaz...

after tt go pasir malam walk coz leo wanted eat balls...=xden kip walking n eating...da best part is ppl buy food n u kop frm them!!!muahahaha...den zq,jk,ant[izzit?] go simei play arcade....everyday play..not sian meh?no life!hahaz..i no better too =x den i n ml bth...stand there so long still cannot decide go whr...so we go home!!!wee~[boring] but on da way we shop!!!

da way we shop like dam cute sia...i tot our taste were poles apart...but we like same things!!!surprise surprise!we saw a necklace...she saw on da table n i saw on da rack...den we point it out...it was da same design!!!hahaz...so we bot it...on offer too...hehex....den go see earring....she see at da bottom of da rack n i was looking at da top...n i saw tis 1 nice...pointed it out 2 her n she was like....its da 1 i looking at!!!hahaz...so qiao...

hahaz...came home my bro got a shock...is tis his sister?how come face liddat?hahaz....den told him abt promo...keep telling me dun sad...4get it...hahaz...during promo i already giv up le lor..hehex

anyway...wads wrong wif ppl?hope all conflicts resolve soon ya...luv u guys!



muahahaha...mum juz came home n we had a tok....i complain tt stupid hw system n she totally agree wif me tt it is a waste of time!!!she would rather i come home study...yay!!!can get her write letter 4 me liao....so happy!!!can b free frm tt stupid hw time n stop wasting time there ya....hmm...but its fun too...all da crap n pics we took..hahaz.....jess!!!i wan da pics!!!!ling...dun delete tt pic!!!!anz...ur poem r nice!!!i luv u guys....



hmms...today was fun! n dam stupid too...

1st had x-country...jaime say doing councillor duty de...in da end dun hav den come np...she came in a cab wif wc o.O how come ar?*winkz* hahaz...den reach there...can say sum ppl really rebellious ar...hmm....dun care...not my prob anyway...den walk 2 checkpoint ....so far!hahaz...den wj giv us gd spot...got toilet,vending machine n da beautiful sea....den say we can go absorb energy frm da sea....go die la...hmmphs......got da last checkpoint....so far!!!

den wj came wif a bike 2 deliver water...hahaz....jaime took his bike n went 4 a spin...den she came bac n ml went...den wj stop ml 2 get da bike bac n she borrow frm farhar[hope spell correctly] den she came bac n my turn 2 go...woo~den i met farhar n return her bike....coz i noe go bac liao confirm nobody wan return...n she need it when da race start...so i walk bac....so far!!!hahaz...reached our checkoint onli 2 realize ml borrow bike frm lek....so off we go...wif ml on da bike n me walking n in search of a bike....den finally borrowed 1 n off we go!

we wanted go buy sum breakfast de....also buying sum 4 every1[all np ppl] hahaz...we r such nice ncos rite...den wj saw us....den we juz go dun care...so he call 2 ask us dun ride bike....but we told him we buying food...so we go lor....den couldnt find anywhere sell biscuits so ride till mac there...practically at da other end....dam far sia...den ride bac ...dunno how come i sudd noe alot of ppl...all asking 4 drinks frm me...almost rob me of da food n drinks...sheesh... den x-country is almost over lor=.=||wth...when we left da senior boys juz start lor....den on da way giv food 2 sec1s n 2s....idiot...effort not appreciated sia...hmmph...if i noe they dun appreciate i dun waste $ on them le...den reach our checkpoint....saw jaime n wj sitting there...wahahaha...den mr chin at da back drawing.omg!!!so nice!!!!he draw da scenery lor...da sky..da trees...da sea...da bench..n jaime n wj sitting side by side on da ground!!!wahahaha....nice pic!!!den they say they werent sitting there....my foot!!!look so like u 2 lor....somemore there onli got u 2?wahahaha...den rode da bike bac....so fun!!!dun wanna stop!!!but havta return 2 da sch la...haiz....

den debrief...haiz...dun wanna tok abt it ya....can onli say 1 word....dissappointed?=x

den go da lagoon there eat...so hurry lor...we r like late 4 zuo wen class...wth....den walk go back sch....on da way saw bus so i n ml ran 4 it while sa rest walked...hahaz....den reach class after climbing 4 lvl!!!arghh!!!so tired!!!tt horse scolding late comer....den when they saw me they was like 'or hor...np de late' =.=|| so?big deal...den i told her we dismiss at 12.30 so went 4 lunch....den she praise me!!!wahahaa....she told da rest i took effort 2 rush bac n my excuse is reasonable not like theirs rubbish....=x...so she let me go in class...i feel guilty sia....den jaime came... gf was like....'dun excuse her!!!da 1st np person come le...she no reason 2 excuse'...shut up la gf....always wan see ppl die den happy izzit?

den jaime adjusted da fan....got tt string stuck den climb chair n shelf 2 get it down....hahaz...attracted lotsa attention sia...in da end take broom...=x....den wrote compo.....write halfway horse call me go discuss da previous compo...

she tok abt my result blah x3 ask me got study not....den pull my sleeve say i everyday go 4 cca nia...nvr study...spoil my already bad mood can... grr....den use eng teach me compo...wth...like i dunno chi liddat....hmmph....somemore ask my re-write tt dumb compo...cannot same somemore....n by mon.grr...den so pissed off tt i couldnt write my current compo....anz,jess n ling all ask me lac....how 2?????

i got promo tmr lor....haven start revising yet...tis wk got so many test how 2 revise???den haven prepare uniform lor...tmr my boots confirm like shit de...den mon -fri hav test...EVERYDAY!!!wth....freak la...confirm fail everything de lors....den da attitude of some ppl...piss me off can....sommemore i hav 2 do 8 newspaper article not 4getting i haven do chi holiday wan yet

den anz n jess ask me go watch white noise wif them...i wanted 2....mayb can scream n relax b4 i start studying ya...so ask da teacher if i can go...anyway its 3 already...den she go ask horse....stupid horse....say tt I MUS finish den can go...da rest can go 1st....wth!!!biased!!!!k lor....den i go ask her let me go...somemore i promise 2 hand it in by next fri....den she say 'so u not going 2 hand in da compo by mon?' wth!!!go eat shit la.....den i ask her can extend 1 more wk coz got lots of test....den she keep saying NO...WTH....den i was like desperate liao....keep asking...n telling her reason....i think i look like i going 2 break down anytime soon ya....every1 was like wa....she look stress tt look....den horse ask me dun go commit suicide =.=|| plz lor....den i say after chi o's i go jump off building....i think she believe den she grant all my appeals 4 later dateline.yay!!! its a war won!!!hmm....but i still got lots 2 do....haiz....after all da pleading etc no mood go watch white noise le...haiz...sry jess...sry anz....anyway no time also....i havta prepare 4 tmr....

den was toking 2 jaime....she like dam relax can...how come we same class same cca she so lax i so stress???haiz...who ask me....slp in class nvr faster finish hw...haiz....

o ya....tt mr toh...another idiot....anz,ash n i slp in his class.....he call me nvr call them!!!biased!!!hmmph!!!!!!!den ask me ans qns....den thankz 2 net,maltida n fl i got da ans...hehe....den he complain i very soft =.=|| eh...i juz woke up leh...wad u wan? den say in front of every1 wad i everytime shout at cadets....wear np shirt got rank on shoulder den become very loud....idiot....not lor!!!still got ppl say i soft cannot hear me lor....N...i where got shout at cadets!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!dun anyhow say!

i hate tis f*** up life can....esp tis coming wk.....arghh!hope i can survive ya...so ppl....buzz off if u wanna piss me off....i m aready pissed....u can save ur effort



o ya...island kiss frm escada is dam nice....really very nice...its peach n mango mix if i rmb correctly....but its limited edition...haiz...but how come i saw ppl promoting it?



towning!!!its fun wif da rite ppl!!!i totally agree tt wif gek...

its not da shopping tts fun...its da crapping?esp when u get a share in crapping n not onli listen ppl crap...hehe...qazim call me at arnd 10+ ask wan meet 1st...so i said ok...[by da way i was slping]....den i see da clock n tot it was still early so go bac slp...i was supposed 2 meet him at 12.45 at bedok mrt n lh at 1 at lavender.guess wad time i woke up....i woke up at 12.30 when qazim called 2 ask me whr m i...hehex....paiseh!!!!>.< den ml call n ask me if i going not...so i told them i not meeting them at lavender...i will meet them at town instead.i dun wan them wait 4 me lah...confirm need wait very long de...den i will feel guilty sia.

den waited 4 them at the heeren....walk walk...den saw tis badge..'ppl who r punctual hav nth better 2 do' hahaz...it totally suits me!!!coz i m always late =p..so dun blame me if i m late!

den we very zi lian...keep taking photos...but i think i look dam retarded...den wanted 2 play pool...but lh was wearing sch u...sudd every1 wan play pool sia...tt time i ask all say boring dun wan play,waste $,play b4...today all say fun,wanna try....wow...such sudd reaction.den go ps...we went 2 play arcade!!!again...lh cannot go in...so qazim accompanied her go walk walk[sry lh!!!dint mean 2 ps u there!!!] den faezah,ml n me go play datona.i always get 2nd!!!wahahaha...den ml n faezah took turns get 1st n 3rd...den we ambitious go play advanced...we totally regret!!!hahaz...we like keep crashing can...den both of them idiot la...i in middle lane both come squeeze me hoping i crash...in da end both of them crash den i go..wahahaha....see...retribution...heaven has eyes!!!

after tt we go clothes shop shop....i n ml saw tis skirt quite nice...den we each take 1 go try...i think da rest think we siao..hahaz...actually its fun!!!da 1st time i do tt was wif ml in metro...so retarded...we anyhow take nvr see size de...den 2nd time wif jaime...at tis fashion...den again at simei....hahaz...da memory is so funny can...still rmb i n jaime wore da same dress n laugh at ourselves...anyway i think tt skirt n tt shirt quite nice ya...hmm...mayb can go buy....or mayb not...

den on da way home...we keep taking pics...take till camera no batt liao...very zi lian rite..anyway...qazim!!!i wan da pics!!!send me!!!!!!!!!!!!

yesterday...haiz...hav 2 write 2 chi compo in a gay...wth...den sacrifice lunch summore...i wanna kill tt horse...den tt horse tok abt how 2 write da compo n i slpt...den time 2 write da compo..i sort of fell asleep n tt horse come pinch me...i wanna sue her!!!student abuse!!!den da chi compo teacher...i hand in compo den she say my writing small =.=|| plz lor..there others who write smaller den me lor...

den np time....lets tok abt tuesday wan 1st....CAN VOMIT BLOOD SIA!!!!!!!!wad form a gang go fight ncc...sheesh....den cannot keep quiet de leh...den wan me hurry up but keep interrupting...den got 1 guy keep asking qns...qns tt i m gonna explain...den i bth...ask ml take over...she sort of scolded them say we will punish them....den they immediately diam diam...but less den 5 mins later start again...sheesh...but i see potential in sum of them!^^

den fri...my whole squad go do drills except ant,zq n me...i wanna do drills!!!!!!!not tt i luv doing drills...but ssgt is coming n i need prac!!!i onli learn sum drills da last prac n i haven master it yet...haiz...at tis rate i m gonna fail =( but its fun taking da sec1s...we told them discipline issues,attire etc but they were dam noisy...den hy scold them...den they sudd dam quiet den when she left they tell me she very fierce..hahaz..so they shld noe who is gd 2 them *winkz* hahaz..no la..i didnt wan 2 b too fierce on their very 1st prac.later scare them off nia...den played concentration...sum of them soooo cute!!!sooo shy!!!!hahaz....i luv them!!!!den we talk...sort of crap..hahaz...juz wanted 2 noe more of them la...den told them abt np too....den got 1 very rich gal...very fri need leave early..hahaz...den had games...got 1 dal dam strong sia...dun see her small size...she can use onli both her hands crawl faster den any1 k...jaime call her red-bull gal coz she drink red bull mix wif 7-up...yuckz..so gassy n er xin...but she very enthu!!!den got ppl headache n leg pain...but cannot find 1st aid kit!!omg!!whr did it go?*winkz* den taught them how 2 greet officers...sss was behind...hy n zwl was arnd too...stress stress stress...den dismiss them...den zq n i went 2 np rm while ant go open classrm door...

tt sss dam retarded can...always stand behind da door...think he security guard or sth izzit...hmmph...zq n i wan go 4 debreif...den open da door bump into sss...idiot....den we hurry close da door coz zwl was scolding da rest...at least sss did sth gd....let us escape scolding :p hahaz...den after a long time of standing outside we open door again...stupid can...zwl still scolding ppl...den i hav 2 stand summore...like so extra?den after np zq apologize 2 sss 4 bumping into him...guess wad sss say...'next time dun overdo it'wth....its not i wan 2 defend zq or wad...but tt sss so no brain....stand behind door sure get knock de ma...dun wan get knock den dun stand behind da door la...idiot...hmmph

anyway...sry faezah n vincent!!!sry leh...i 4 got u 2 still in field...hehex....n thankz vincent...luckily u go check np rm got anymore things not....or else i no nid study physics liao...

o...did i mention ling n jess?they learning the ways of da pervert le...sad...not innocent anymore sia....noe wad they do? i was slping....=x...n they took my highlighter [da flower looking de] .den jess call me...den i look up....n she told me..'tis is u..i screw u'den she turn da highlighter cover...omg....i was shocked!!!my eyes mus hav been like tis O.O..hahaz...den they ask me wad does screw means...omg!!!they dunno wad it means n still say it???LOL...den i ask jaime n ilyana explain after showing them da screwing thingy...den ilyana explained it...den me jess n ling burst out laughing....coz ling said...'we use a bad word w/o noeing it' =x...hahaz...i guess i also not tt innocent anymore...haiz...see la....ppl aways polluting me...so soo hui...listen 2 ifana n stay golden!!!

hahaz...den also got p.e...volleyball....ash,xt,sh n i were playing together...den ash hit too hard n xt miss it...n it hit xt **** hahaz....ask xt she ok not...she say'luckily i not guy' wahahaha....so funny....ash like going 2 roll on de floor liao...den we all laugh n laugh...



happy v'day every1!!!

hehe...went sch quite late den go find tttt gals....tine say waiting 4 me 2 come wif da gifts...hehex..paiseh!!!den gav them prezzie...tine n da rest also gave me prezzie...awww....tts so sweet ya....

during eng anz ask i allergic 2 pollen not..sadly yes...=( she wanted 2 giv me 1 of da rose wan!!!hahaz...nvm...end of da day jess,ling n anz rose like dead...all da petals like dropping off....leaves also dropping....such a sad sight....den ling siao wan....keep spraying water trying 2 keep it alive...

chem so fun too!!!i juz luv practicals!!!=) den maths....i seriously still dun understand permutation....den geog....copy his ppt slide till hand pain...or izzit i was also trying 2 do chi?hahaz....den physics....can slp?den can hear eng frm next class shout n bang table...wow!

chi....i sort of copy bh zao ju...suppose 2 use de dunno wad thing den i go edit...den horsie say not bad!!!hahaz....but still got mistake ya....sian....den let us late leave summore....how nice.

den gave ml,cel n jaime prezzie....ml saw her prezzie n was like screaming away???lol....big sunflower ya....den cannot find faezah....so tmr ba!

ptsm....got no hw!!!den anz jess n ling were crapping away...using fone take photos....we zi lian rite?hahaz.....not me....i nvr take...i take others....den theres 1 anz bite her rose.wahahaha.....ppl keep looking n laughing....look retarded ya...lol....den i take pic den go edit till chao qian bian..lol...sry...but its cute!=p den jaime so crazy....go learn malay ya...den say wad sperm n boobs la....sicko...

den went np rm make some pouch put choc coins 4 da old ppl tmr...so sad i not going!!!!dunno y put me wif sec1s ya...but nvm...i get chance 2 bond wif them n go home early!!!wee~lol...den yi jun walk past jaime call him come help...den he say busy but like 5 mins later bring a gal along 2 help???hahaz....den we all xiang wai wai...ask him go date no need help...dun let gal wait...lol...den they practise their skit 4 tmr....i like nth 2 do den offer help hy sew...hehe....i anyhow wan ar....den she say nice..so i was like 'huh?' den she tell me she being sarcas =.=||how nice....den had tok wif sss....i like not involved de lor...but i think he's rite...we r at fault too....we carry da joke abit too far?den if i were in his shoes...i think i will dam sad...sad till breakdown.....haiz...but still abit rubbish ya....



fine lo...all my bloody freaking fault lo...

its all my fault i dun hav msn 7 n get left out of da conver like an idiot....its my fault tt i felt neglected.....its my fault i got bored den pissed...

its my fault my name is dora...my fault tt my grandpa name me xue zhu...my fault i m born in da lim family...my fault ppl call me snow pig....my fault ppl call me bloody pig...my fault ppl call me doraemon...my fault ppl call me sea monster...my fault ppl call me dodo

its my fault tt ppl came out wif dodo i nvr got angry....its my fault tt they think i like dodo...my fault i name li hwei hui hui coz she call me dodo....ALL MY FAULT!!!my fault tt she say she luv da way she call me hui hui....my fault tt my bday is on jan n li hwei gave me tt bottle....

i m stupid n dumb too....i believed her msg in da bottle....so dumb tt i actually got so touched i almost cried in da end 2 find tt wad she wrote is 4 da sake of giving a prezzie or shes bored...so stupid tt i spend so much time n $ trying 2 get every1 gift 4 valentine's day...my fault ppl can irritate me but i cant b mad....my fault i shldnt hav said anything n suffer in silence

o ya....its my fault tt she can call me dodo w/o me complaining n me calling her hui hui n she hates it.....its all MY FAULT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!its also my fault i felt so cheated when i realise wad she wrote in da bottle is fake....my fault i spoilt their valentine's

n 2 add on....my fault i spoilt chi new yr 4 some ppl....my fault i spoilt my own bday...my fault i felt extra n unwanted.....my fault i m left out....

its all coz i m too naive ya....stupid of me 2 believe....stupid of me 2 believe these 'frenz' of mine....so they r fake....ok....i noe now....no 1 is true.....i m on my own....get out of my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i dun wan anybody....juz leave me alone....let me die of loneliness....let me live w/o frenz....i dun nid them...i dun nid ppl who r fake....i dun need ppl who dun understand me....i dun need frenz who gang up against me....my fault tt no 1 stand up 4 me....

y do i care whether my frenz will hav anything 4 v'day?its not my prob....i juz wanna like justine...let our frenz hav sth....guess my effort wasted?fine.

its all my fault i m born ME!my fault i m me!my fault i wan 2 b me!my fault i try 2 please ppl till i m not me anymore...my fault i wan 2 fit in so badly tt i m not me anymore....whos da real me anyway?i dunno anymore...mayb its even my fault i m so sensitive...

its my bloody freaking fault i m not enjoying myself....n tt i m always so depressed on special days...mayb da world needs me no longer...mayb i m juz a cursed 2 ppl...i m born liddat...wad can i do?

juz let me off....let me cry...let me bang my head against da wall.....juz let me die....dun blame me if u dun see anymore smile on my face b it real or fake....i m tired of acting happy....dun say i look depressed...i m.....mayb i might reach da stage till i dun feel da pain anymore...i hope so....dun say i sound like i wan 2 cry....my heart is crying...juz LEAVE ME ALONE...



wee~today go ppl jia bai nian so fun

1st went 2 meet py n tine 2 go tw hse.i m late again...SRY!hehe...den met jess on da train n took it 2 lakeside...so far!!!!den tw dad come fetch us....da car so posh...we were guessing which car...den tt car came we were like 'wa!!!tt car s posh wouldnt it b nice if tt was tw dad car?'lol...den his hse like condo?or izzit condo?lol...den 18lvl....wow!!!his rm got nice view sia...hse dam big too...i think triple da size of my hse....O.O...tw!!!u dam lucky!!!!lol...den we gamble ya...lol.i won at 1st...but in da end lost...sheesh....den py soooo lucky...keep winning n even found a dollar stuck sum where.den we kept eating da new year goodies...or izzit me?hahaz...cannot put all da food in front of us...we will eat n eat de...=x den da pizza came!!!woot~but da guys haven come yet...so we waited 4 them...tt tine hor...keep wanting 2 play bball...but we end up playing cards etc instead.den we go eat....his sis so cute sia...so entertaining?hahaz.den we ask her see later which guy cute...den adam,karl n chris came...she so shy!!!say she tell us if we go her rm...so we go...den she tell us she like da guy w/o specs in striped shirt!!moomoo!!!den take pic n go home!his hse so nice all of us like dun wan leave sia...but we meeting ling la...

den 1 hr train ride 2 tanah merah go ling's hse...den havta walk there...so sunny!!!finally reach...there like all band ppl....so jess,py,tine n i zhao 2 da rm play cards again...we becoming gambling addicts le.=x den ling's mum came home...like so happy giv ang bao liddat...lol...tw n ling mum so nice!!!den i lost all my coins!!!arghh!!!my luck so bad...i think py won all my coins?lucky py!!!

den i went 2 zq hse...every1 playing bball?wc playing com den zq dunno do wad den i n ml play poker....play wif nuts i also lose till dam cham...haiz...den go play heart attack..lol..LOL...play till they wanna heart attack????hahaz...i think i too blur le...=xden gamble again...i lose till bet become 10cent...den i begin 2 win...juz enuf 2 recoup my losses...den i n ml left..

haiz...wanted go mr toh hse but cancelled?den jess hse n tine hse but too late...nvm...theres always next wk!=)

den come home mum cook dinner!!yay!!!so nan de she cook..yummy!!!



TTTT day out!woot!

hehe...today woke up late...den met justine 1/2 hr late...i m so sry justine!!!den we went bugis shop 4 v'day prezzie 4 our frenz...hehe....spend quite alot ya...

den went ps...we lost our way!hahaz...we walk 2 park mall den realise ps opp. den da pedestrain kena block...hav 2 detour...stupid la..i n justine like wana die le..hehe...den finally reach ps...go buy drink wait 4 ling,kris,py n jess...wait dam long sia...u all late 1 hr!!!den they ask us go eat 1st....so i n justine tried finding food court ya...but cant find...den walk past swenson....den we went in eat!!!omg!!!at 1st say she treat me i treat her den no need buy prezzie 4 each other...but she going buy mine ya...thankz justine!!!=)

den finally da rest came...yay!!!all wear pink n skirt?hahaz...so cute!!!den we went take np!!!yay!!!my bday wish?yups...hehex...da machine cute can?got beat de....music too!py so cute too!!!da tongue sticking out de...den justine dimples so pretty!kris jess n ling so pretty too!!!hehe...

after tt went shop shop ya...sum wan play pool sum wan shop?lol...den theres movie n arcade...so many things 2 do yet nth 2 do...den went arcade play...ling n justine tried getting tt BIG winnie da pooh frm da machine but couldnt....da machine cheat $$$!!!!!haha!!!den finally called adam cum...but he was at home...so we go shop!bot tine's prezzie!!!hehex...den ling bot wad she wanted ya..*winkz*i hope he like it ya....hahaz...aiya...anything frm u he will also like de horz.

den duck egg came...den i jess n py go off wif him play pool!!!while ling n kris shop.but there got lotsa ppl hav 2 wait...den we go eat carrot cake adam's treat!!!thanks!!!den i realise...he told he he n py stead is bluff me de...hmmph!!!such gd frenz ya...den we go play pool.i m such an idiot...cannot hit anything de...hmmph...but thankz 2 jess n adam...i slowly learn ya...but py like so pro!!!cant believe she beginner.adam n jess pro too!hahaz....but weird la...most of da time i use left hand can hit in...=.=||i right-handed leh...cant believe myself...den play till 5++den cum home!!!wee~!!

thankz 2 justine ya...all her frenz r gonna hav prezzie on v'day...so totful of her rite...den she ask me if i wanna buy 4 my np frenz too...hmm....i wanna buy 4 them!!!all my supposedly close fren ya...recently like grow further apart le...mayb is i paranoid...but tts da feeling i get!but dunno wad 2 buy...den i nvr bring enuf $$$ today...haiz...they also nvr reply me?dunno if they wanna share buy giv each other not...hehe...soon all my ang bao $will b gone ya...but doing sth nice 4 frenz its worth it ya*winkz*

who wanna go snow city???wan cum tell me!!!best on weekend!!!i lazy go ask le...haiz....ask me confirm date ya....den i anyhow choose 1....eh...not i die die wan 27th hor...its a weekend tt happens tt sum of us free?shhesh....y m i creating trouble 4 myself?ask my sis bring me go all free ya...use staff pass my whole family go free....y i bother asking my frenz?coz i wan 2 hav fun wif them!nvm if nobody understand n no1 wans 2 go



today chu san....so sian.havta go sch....*yawnz*

went sch n was feeling slpy all da time....didnt really follow wad lela was saying....den we had p.e...wan chin fell...omg...i saw her fall yet couldnt stp it....no 1 could stop it?hahaz...anyways....rite after she fell she atarted crying...can prac feel her pain too....its juz like tt sec1 camp....*ouch*=x....n worse...we hav lessons after tt on 4th lvl!!!jun n net went 2 buy ice 4 her....luckily theres illyana da sjab gal!den wc sat on a chair....i suggested moving her 2 da side away frm da parade sq...den sum1 said"omg...she liddat u still wanna play???"wth....m i tt heartless???????its hot n sunny there ma...of coz move casualty away rite..n its like in da middle of nowhere?

den help her up 2 2nd lvl...took a long time....take opp. 2 pon maths...hehe...wc say its normal 4 her 2 twist her leg....noe her since pri sch but nvr see b4?hahaz....guess i not tt close wif her ya...

den maths....so sian...i wanna slp!!!hahaz....den i ling n jess tok abt tmr outing!!!yay!!!tttt day out!!!woot~den recess tok abt sun bai nian thingy...hehe....will b fun ya?cant wait!lol....den sort of tok abt wads gonna happen 2 ling....den abt *ahem....den i saw **** turn n eyes look dam big...omg....he haven gotten over yet?=x...den had chi....do test corrections nia...stupid la...i think i do most corrections de...my lower den edward n karl...can u imagine???omg...i cham le....den i do corrections till hand pain sia....so much!!!practically hav 2 do corrections 4 all....

anyway...who going mr toh n mdm ma hse bai nian??who going???i heard is coz sum of da gals wanna learn make dumpling tts y go mdm ma hse de....lol...den when mr toh ask who wan 2 go his hse...i go n ask got ang bao take not...hehe...come 2 think of it hor...i like very bad leh....lol...

haiz...i m sensitive n tts a fact....huix2 say no need show....m i?i m juz being who i m....da chao sensitive me....i dun wanna act happy when i m not....i m sick of tt fake face....feel like i m suffocating....theres no1 i can really confide in except gek....but it so hard 2 explain certain things ya?n i m tired of explaining too....juz leave me alone...i dun wanna say anything.i m not angry wif any1 ya...juz mad at myself...y do i feel da way i do? i always feel tt i m not wanted n dam extra....ppl wun miss me ya...it wouldnt make a diff if i was present anot...mayb if i m not it would b beta...ppl tell me dun feel tt way coz its wrong... but i cant help it ya....its da feeling u guys giv me...n being da sensitive person i m....haiz....i hav nth 2 say 2 any1 now...i dun wanna quarrel wif any1 le...



HAPPY CHI NEW YR EVERY1!!!

new yr is fun!!!i luv cny!!!esp all da ang baos ya?

chu xi-
went bac 2 ynps wif mo n ah boi...meet ms neo n mdm wu...ms neo 4got me n ah boi le....must hav lots of hints den guess our name =( sad ya....so fast 4get us?den waited 4 gek 2 cum....complications....a little while we at canteen ask her cum...a little while we opp da road ask her cum...den end up we go sc there meet her....sry ya?keep changing make u hurry...hehe....tts y i dun like meet ppl 1/2 way...confirm got complications de.den mo bag dam heavy...being de nice me i help her ya...den go tm walk walk....wanted eat fish n co. but mo allergic 2 seafood...den end up go seoul garden eat...reunion dinner wif pri sch frenz?hahaz...den we practically stuff ourselves...coz ah boi say cannot waste $ mus eat more....but gek like eat quite little?mo tot she got yan shi zheng....always dun eat de...so skinny still say fat...hahaz....den i n ah boi took lots of prawns den cook fried prawns!!amg all da food prawns more ex ya?so can cover up wad we pay...den i n gek bth left 1st go buy pants?lol....make da guy strip de display...lol...end up gek nvr take tt....hehe...when she changing i n ah boi try taking pic =x...how pervertic!!!hahaz....

den cum home eat again....wanna puke sia...2 steamboats in a day???omg...i cant believe myself....den hurry finish go meet jaime,wj n wq 2 chinatown...den almost went 2 sentosa?den came bac n met leo...den squeeze all da way in chinatown....but worth it ya?da fireworks look soooo beautiful!!!!like stars twinkling in da nite sky....wow!!!

chu yi-
slp like pig till 10....my mum force me wake up de...hehe...den go waterloo st....so crowded!!!summore at 12+++when da sun at its highest?den got a lady almost burn my hair wif da joss-stick.luckily i siam fast enuff....den lots of ashes land on me...*coff coff*but made it inside...phew...den pray den left le...den go eat vegetarian.....den go my grandma hse[dad side] every yr since tt my bro,sis n i try avoiding every1 ya?onli see my grandma nia....but tis yr my bro tot...see them get ang bao wad...y say no 2 $?den after so many yrs 1st time see my relatives ya...all cannot regconise me....all tot i m my sis fren....=.=|| nvm...i cannot regconise them too....den b4 tt pract aunt came we hurry up siam liao...hehe....but my cuz wan a cuz gathering ya?but they wun see us de....tts da way things r...

den come home.....change n slp......even 4got abt dinner.....slp 4 arnd 16 hrs...shiok....but havta wake up....sian....

chu er-
my aunt came....den ah gek came...yay!!!i miss ya gek!hehe....saw her 2 days ago nia....den all of us go 2nd uncle hse together....gek hse abv nia...very fang bian horz..hehe...den go her hse....play chess till sian den lie on floor n catch up on each oth's life ya?hehe....i think she's da onli 1 i can really tok 2 ya?like got nth scared 2 tell her....thanks 4 being there 4 me ya...i luv u g.t!!!*muackz* ur da best!!! hehe....den snack on da food there?her mum brought so much food in da rm 4 me....i feel so bad...make her serve me ya?=x....
den went downstairs 2 2nd uncle hse....anna so cute!!!den ml jie put make up 4 her....so pretty!den i n jojo sort of tot her how 2 play dai dee?teach bad ya...i feel guilty=x....den go eat....wow....go yu sheng too....but too many ppl....lao already like got nth left....=x....den play bj?i lost!!!cant believe it....i actually lost....er jiu like santa liddat....lose dun collect $ win giv $....lol...i luv er jiu!!!so generous!!!but i still lost ya....=( hehe...nvm la....most impt happy ya?mayb later ask mum cover up my loses...hehe....den play till 10....every1 stop....den we younger 1 go rm still continue?end up lose more nia....hai kor siao le...i.win till siao le...wan continue playin de...but hav sch tmr....sian....

sumtimes i wonder....m i creating misery 4 myself?mayb i m....n at da same times affecting others too....oh my...i feeling guilty le...but theres nth i can do 2 reverse time le ya.....haiz...





hahaz..i confirm plans le!!!i going meet ah boi n ah mo den go meet gek.den we will shop coz she haven bought any bottom 4 cny yet...hahaz...den come home eat reunion dinner den go eunos meet jaime,wq,wj n mayb leonard den go chinatown.busy busy...no time 2 rest at all...lol...

haiz..i feel so bad lor....they havta push bac da time frm 6 to 8 coz of me....lol...can juz go w/o me ya? den can hav more fun...feel so bad....haiz...

i always help ppl de lor...do anybody see tt?or all see my faults nia?den need help den rmb me?haiz...everytime ppl ask me do things i dun wanna help de lor...but i will feel guilty...so i will try unless really cannot...but do any1 see tt?or all onli die die wan me help?alot of times my np frenz wan me print schedule did i not help?i wanted 2 say NO! but aiya...help la...but when my printer ran out of ink i ask 4 help did any1 bother?NO!nvm....ask arnd untill i wanna cry le den found sum1 willing 2 help...haiz....but theres a limit 2 how i can help u noe...sum times i really cannot....den say i selfish giv excuses???m i tt sort of person???fine lo if u think of me liddat...i got nth 2 say...n tt can onli mean u dunno me well enuf....so if i ever say a big NO! into ur face...it means i m pissed....pissed wif da effort of trying 2 help...sum ppl dun tok 2 me 1 ya?need help den cum?or everytime tok 2 me is need help de?...i hav seen enuff of these ppl...cant i hav more genuine frenz who dun expect things out of me but let me b da way i m?

juz wish i can find a hole n hide n cry ya?so much has been bothering me....yet i juz cant tell....or i think there will b trouble?hahaz...so ppl...dun ask....i dun wanna say anything...tears hav been welling up my eyes lately but i fought 2 hold them bac...but i dun think i can fight da urge much longer...=( but oh wells...cny coming rite?it will b another new beginning?hope i dun need more beginnings 2 put unhappiness behind





idiots....freakz....dum ass....k..i not da kind 2 scold till so bad.....but really bth liao...life sux....but wad sux most is sum idiots!

today my mood quite gd de lors....starting da new wk ahead thinking of da fun stuff tts going 2 happen....den some bloody idiots spoil me mood =.=|| thanks ar[sarcastically]

k...things 2 b happy abt....
10 feb!!!-
hope can go gek hse ya?every yr i go?hehe....den go downstaris my uncle hse le...so fang bian rite?hehe...den can see anna!!!she so cuuuteeee!!!!hahaz...she losing cuteness le la...going bigger le...haiz...not da small little baby i once knew?den 2 days ago see her...2 front teeth gone...look so uncute?lol...so i must take more pic wif her b4 she not cute le.hehe...mayb i will kidnap her home too!!!
12 feb!!!-
TTTT day out!!!woohoo~ its been a long time since all of us went out together coz of cca commitments.....every1 schedule ALWAYS clash...lol....but thankz 2 tis bday wish of mine we r going out!!!!=) been planning tis day since my bday...i cant wait!!!!every1 bring more $$$ i will take neoprint take till siao de!!hehe...we noe each other like 4 yrs le but nvr all together take neoprint b4 ya?always short of 1 member de....n adam bring more $$$ too!!!!den can play longer...lol!!!dun blame me...u offer da treat!!!hehe....
13feb!!!-
going bai nian!!!not 2 relatives hse...but ling,zzz monster n justine!wee~~~zzz monster live in jurong!!!so far!!!but his parents rich ya?>.~ hehe....den ling invited us 2 her hse!!!yay!!!long time nvr go le!den mayb going jess hse?i hope can go!*prays hard* hehe....den go justine hse!!!haven been 2 her new hse yet!cant wait!!!den i will go dao luan..hehehe....i will mess up ur rm justine!!!den mayb along da way i n justine will sneak off 2 get sth?*winkz*
den 19 feb!!!
going sentosa!!!wee!!!!hui hui!!!i miss u!!!!n jannah n faezah too!!!hehe...i can see faezah everyday ya?but i still miss u!!!hehe....k....i m mental like wad ling say =x.i cant wait too!!!but hope i dun become burned piggy ya?hehe...

but on 12 feb nco2304 going wj hse?den i cannot go..=( cannot see da long heard of wq le....lol...in np rm today toking abt wj n jaime ya?den jaime feel very hot...wanna close window n door...but wj feel cold wanna keep door open...den little wq will come 2 da rescue!!!lol...so funny...if jaime go da lee brothers is doom!!!wahahaha...at da very same time coz of tis issue kena snub by some idiot ya?say i uninvited ya?k lor...i dun go lor...i got plans anyway.i dun even plan 2 go.i tell u..wo bu xi han!!!i wanna smack his face!!!!i tell u...u beta dun make me hate u or ur life will b living hell!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! n where r frenz when u need them?nowhere!haiz...cant really blame them ya?they r innocent....i guess if it happens again i hav 2 b on my own...

den snow city!!!i so excited can?i very small tt time wanted see snow le...but s'pore no snow de =( den like quite ex?finally got tis voucher...can bring 4 more frenz wif me....hahaz....ask wq n hui hui both say can juz tell them when ya?den today i super hyper den go jio jaime n confirm a date..den 1 not free 1 say no $?sad....sorta spoil my mood?sum how dun really feel like going le...haiz...den was wif jaime...den try confirm another date...but jaime too busy being amusesd by a boi boi le...den wq like so not enthu??hmmph!y i always try jio ppl out always fail de???i m a failure sia...den ppl organise i will try 2 go?haiz....nxt time i dun wanna come out wif ideas le...mine always like not appreciated de den others always seem 2 hav dam gd idea which every1 likes?life's unfair!

hahaz...den tmr...omg....i dunno wad 2 do...theres so many activities...which 1 shld go w/o being an extra...aft sch i got 2 options....go play badminton wif my squad or go bac ynps meet ah mo n boi boi?den we can continue da story of piggy n boi boi!!hahaz =x badminton seems fun...more interesting den juz go eat n walk walk wif ah mo n ah boi....but later i become da uninvited guests or da sea monster of 2304?haiz....they so chlidsh can?hello!!!u all turning 16 le...ncos summore...can grow up?haiz...
den after tt i think got reunion dinner?dunno wad my mum planning....she lazy 2 prepare..hahaz...den wq ask me go chinatown wif them? other den wj dun tell me who so i dunno...haiz....seems fun ya?but will mum allow?nah...everytime late events very crowded de she wun let me go...but still can try?lol....hope very small la...but theres still hope!!!but i wanna see who going 1st...later all guys...den i so extra...i very thin skin de....hehe....but i wanna go!go see see...i think my mum a little overprotective ya?i realised theres s many things tt i nvr try b4...lol...some can onli b done when u still a little child?so its too bad 4 me...lol....sad childhood i hav...nvr play so many things b4.haiz...so i wan 2 jian shi jian shi....i wanna see da world!

lol...think i hav 2 make a choice?spend time wif my squad b4 we pass out?or 2 see my long time no see frenz...2 spend time wif family or frenz?lol...its a decision i must make...sacrifices too...but no matter wad i will luv new yr!!!yay!!!hope i wun regret my chioce ya?or else new yr i will b sad...hehe...




life tis past wk really very hectic sia....

mrs lim was on medical leave 4 a few days...she came bac today...her hair was so messy...in class i realised she look dam pale.poor mrs lim....y did she get such an illness???she is so nice lor.i will work hard in maths...i m not gonna make her mad....will try la huh...a*maths sux!esp binomial eqn n permutation....juz dun get wad she saying....hey!at least i pass da 1st a*maths test of da yr!!!*smile*

den during chem mr lim changed our seat....i got da 'A1' seat...its right in front of his table lor...now cannot slack le....den he make us seat boi ger boi ger....den i btx phira n edward....i not close wif them lor....so its going 2 b boring...den phira has tis bk called grossology...see da word gross?its a really gross bk....got pic of ppl smelling other ppl armpits....chao er xin can.but da facts quite interesting la...shld try reading it.

den today got chi test....stupid lo...so diff....i do till 3rd page den slp 4 arnd 20mins?den i wake up start chionging le.den i 1st 2 section sure die de....haiz.....tt horse even tot i nvr hand in my test paper coz she didnt see it....den i seach....da 1st few lor...is she blind???haiz....den she like condemn me can....say i worse den sec5s student coz i onli get 2 marks 4 1st sectin=x.den lesson ends at 12.50?n we hav compo class at 1? stupid can....walk out of class nia da teacher come le....den she shock tt we leaving da classroom.....den we tell her we haven hav lunch she was like 'aiyo..u all so ke lian' glad u noe lor....stupid system....den start at 1.15 liddat....den she somemore wan extend till 3++....pls lor...its cca day lor....she will make us dam late lor.....den we chiong da essay den can zhao....hehe...1st time i write so fast....den ml call me....i ans da call den she put down...next min she's at da back wif jaime =.=||

den went 4 np...sian lor....do rifle drill all day.go rifle range waited 4 ms lim 2 come....she came n we greeted.....n she looked shocked!!!hahaz.....den i went in behind her....she ask me if we were supposed 2 do tt...den i tell her we must greet officer de....dun she noe???so many of us greeted her b4 lor....den go driveway do rifle drill....den learn kaleh n bimbit....its like da rest all noe abit except those in publicity...haiz...den we fidget n sy tell us not 2....its not our fault lor....make us do bimbit n he tok tok tok.....hand will pain lo....den he ask us qns n say if we dun reply will stay in tt position 4eva.....i like going 2 drop da rifle le can...i always cant seem 2 hold da c.g lor...haiz...must practise more.
den got new HO.....jeffery lian xin? da lian xin sound so funny....i think its like a ger name.den da si da jing gang all come.luckily debrief quite short.....

next up....dinner....so gao xiao can....jaime,ks,jen,benny,leo,wc n me all go eat....ks bought his food...den da rest of us was like waiting 4 ours...wait wait wait.....so long....ks soup like onli got half left n his noodles harden when our food came....den all da time like look hungrily at his food...hahaz....den eat 1/2 way jaime sudd say leo look very 'xing gan' (sexy) when he eat =.=|| den all of us was like obseving him eat....lol! den da table slope 1 side,da higher end at leo there while lower end at jaime there....den jen say leo e****ing....lol...den got lots of pervertic stuff....den we were discussing bowls n plates....ks say jaime like plate...even his bigger den hers...lol!!like so insulting?den heard got sum1 say jaime dam flat....front flat, back also flat...shld hav seen her face...like dunno wan angry or laugh liddat...den got racist joke....omg....we frm 7++ tok till 10 lor.....den mostly pervertic stuff can....oh wells....wif them wad can u expect?*winkz*

haiz....da forum....i think its a stupid idea...i can feel a conflict rising....some ppl r like toking bad abt np....tt np sux? den they would rather join other ccas....if they had a choice...i noe alot of ppl r forced....but plz lar....officers checking da forum every now n den lor....n when da sec1s come in n join da forum.....r we going 2 scare them away wif all tis???den discussion abt pop...some say might not hav performance...mayb onli parade nia...den another say gd or bad depends on who is planning....den those who said np sux can come say we look down on them....its not lor....u all can say wad u feel abt np...all da bad stuff on ur own squad section....den we tok abt wad we feel on our section u come complain....haiz....its not we look down on u all lor....theres a reason 4 saying tt lor...last time aft sch we can prepare performance lor....but now got hw time u all got time prepare meh?tts y we say mayb no performance lor....n if u all think we look down on u all....den prove us wrong!!!!dun juz come complain.prove it!haiz...mayb publicity shldnt hav suggested tt forum at all=x or izzit humans r so hypocritical....onli noe how 2 complain others but end up doing same things....
[if any sec3 gals see tis n is not happy.....not my fault....its my blog.....i can write how i feel like how u can write how u feel in da forum]